Who is Scott now?
When Scott died…my world was blown apart… His being gone…
As his mom…the unknown was too much to take in… Nearly impossible…
Where are you Scott???
Are you OK? Are you safe??
Do you see me??
Are you with God??
What is Heaven???? Where is Heaven??
As you read this…you know these questions …and most likely that terror too…
I had no time to prepare for his death…and even if I had…could I have known the immensity of what his dying would bring me?
But from day one…
I have been forced to see more. I know you have too… It is vast what death makes us learn and open up to…or fight or re-learn…or speak up about or share…
And so importantly now..for both me and you… What has Scott taught me?
Vast…is the right word for that too… It spans my knowing of life and death and beyond this earth and the meaning of more and…and what I didn’t know…and…
And then…he taught me that he was not entirely gone… The signs and dreams and messages…all showed me Scott was still connecting with me.
These other worldly things that no one could explain…but more often than not…showed me something I could never have seen or understood before…
I would never have ventured in to the “spiritual” world without Scott pulling me into it…
You too?
And it has opened me up to this today…
Scott exists as a spirit on the Other Side…
He is my teacher…
He is unconditional love and all knowing…
He teaches me about both the unconditional love for myself and others…AND the all knowing aspects of spirit…so I can live within this spiritual world with him…and teach…
What Mom just brought out…is her journey in this life…
Her life with me as Scott on the Other Side…Heaven…with God…
It has GREAT MEANING for not only Mom…but for you too.
Of course… She wishes she could have known all I am teaching and showing her now…much earlier for her own grief journey…
It wasn’t meant to be known to her then…
But as we have shared with you a number of times in our blog… Spiritual timing is not the same as the expectations you may have for the continuing relationship with your loved ones…
We bring what you need as needed…for you own spiritual journey…for your life plan…soul plan…
For me as Scott…never knowing about the spiritual journey before I died…I became ONE with God, Spirit as soon as I left my body… Every one does…
Did I know my role as Mom’s teacher on that day…May 20, 1994?
YES.
It was clear to me…I had returned to Spirit for many, many reasons… One to be my Mom and Dad’s teachers…as well as a teacher to my extended family…my friends…and many, many others.
Vast, isn’t it?
Spirit is vast. Big does not describe Spirit… Cannot describe it.
Who Am I as Scott?
Spirit…
Living in another realm?
Yes…most definitely…
Alive (in OUR way)…AWARE of everything… Forgiveness is not necessary… WE see the human actions, feelings, anger, love, confusion…and know it is all teaching you…
WE are with you…knowing this death experience goes far beyond anything you could have imagined…
What WE open up to you today…with the greatest LOVE…is to trust in something more than you can see…
To trust …even with out signs and messages or enough dreams…that WE are with you…
Love from Spirit goes beyond your expectations to open your heart and soul to this world that most cannot understand…
It is done…for you reading our blog…through your own enormous grief, pain, missing… Just like Mom had to live with and go through…to experience…
“Forced” as Mom wrote… Forced to find answers AND meaning AND relief…
Life is not a straight line of all goodness…you know that… Life teaches you as you grow and experience more…
Death teaches you to go beyond even what life teaches…
Spirit/God is your great teacher in the death journey…as well as your life journey…soul journey…
Who Is Scott now? Just as your loved one is for you…a teacher…of the broadest kind.
Listen…open up…trust…believe…
In a vastness that cannot always be known…or described…or understood…
It is ALWAYS about love…
And you’re learning more…
Hang on…
We’ll be back next Tuesday… Mom’s going to the Afterlife Awareness Conference in Portland, Oregon… Me too… There is always MORE for her to learn… xoxoxo
My dear Sara,
Your blog continues to be a source of comfort and understanding for me. I have such gratitude for you and Scott.
Oh Linda…thank you. We learn together and from one another…
xoxo
I too am going to the Afterlife Awareness Conference.
I am trying to see that “death teaches” as I struggle with the death of my 17 year old son in a car accident 9 months ago.
I read your post, as i navigate my way through this journey.
Looking for light and strength from those who have traveled this bumpy, harsh, road.
Maybe we will get a chance to meet this weekend.
Wanda
Hi Wanda, I hope we meet up too. For you…at only nine months to be attending the Afterlife Awareness Conference and searching for that which brings you light and strength shows your own strength… Sending you love…
Hi Sara, very powerful entry here. Although I did feel some strong spiritual connections off and on throughout my life I fell into a deep dark place for about 18 months after Mandy died, then suddenly, like a breath of life sustaining air I breathed it back in, a breakthrough of sorts, a return to spirit, a return to understanding the work of the soul. Again, I’m so glad you write in this blog, that you and Scott share this journey with all who can benefit from it. Hugs… Betsy
How beautiful and amazing to have been aware of that breakthrough coming to you Betsy. You can then look for help and inspiration in new places… So glad you found our blog… xox
Very well expressed. Thank you Sara. Nice picture of Scott!
-Joe Rose
Thank you Joe… xox
Thank you Sara. I continue to enjoy reading Scott’s and your blog and being enlightened. Wow, this really is a journey for all of us to open up and learn and take notice. Glad to hear Scott will be at the conference with you in spirit. Hopefully Michael will be there with me also. Look forward to meeting you in person. See you soon.
Yes, Sheryl…quite the journey… Often times more surprisingly enlightening than I could have ever known. Michael will be there…no doubt. Whether he lets you know…up to him… I know…that’s the tough part. Trust he’s always there. Looking so forward to meeting you too!