Scott’s words…about our dream…and more…

The dream I described to you on Monday was not something I asked for…even begged for.

Even though I begged for so much in those early days…for an explanation…for clarity, for something…anything that could explain Scott’s sudden death…or how I could ever survive… It did not always come…

Twenty years ago…when Scott died…we had so few grief resources. I knew so little about dreams and visits…and all that could come in the form of a “sign”. I had to learn through my own experiences…and hope the explanations would come through my counselor or through that insightful book Hello From Heaven…or some totally unexpected way.

Unbelievably today…Scott now comes to me…and explains…and teaches…

I could never ever have expected this miracle to be…

He teaches me that death is so much more than dying… And that this life …our life…has great, beautiful meaning within and all around the immense grief and pain…

Now I know Scott was always with me…from the day he left…

Why do I share that with you? Because I know if I worried…or more accurately obsessed about this loss of love and connection…you are too.

He comes to me…and for you too…in spirit…from spirit…

Believe there is more

I am Scott…

I will be sharing with you…those with such heavy hearts…and a love that goes beyond love for your children and loved ones on the Other Side…

We told you in Monday’s blog that I would explain more about the dream…visitation…Mom had with mein spirit

When this dream was coming to Mom ~ Sara…it was as real as seeing it in full living color as you sit in your own living room… Aren’t dreams like that sometimes? So real…so fully engaging…and emotional…

That was this dream…

You might think it was a figment of her imagination…but many, many of you know…now…that the spirit of your loved one has found ways to communicate with you. If it has not happened yet…trust the pennies you’ve found, the heart stones, the rainbows, cloud formations…the friends you meet…or the vast numbers of ways that it can happen…

In Mom’s dream…I needed to show her that I was in spirit…with spirit…and I was not alone.

She had not seen me after I died… If you remember…I had died three days before I was found…

She trusted when she was told…to not see me.

No goodbyes… Just a flight back home to Ohio…and yes…a closed casket.

She had to deal with that…and add it to the incredible grief that she was already immersed in…

Times passes…that hard grief was being worked on…and yet…still no way of knowing for certain where I was…

It was a few years after I had left I brought this dream to her. It wasn’t immediately after…or even two years. It had to happen in our time… spirit’s time… It had to come in a way to get her attention in a bold way…an unforgettable dream…one that needed to be shared…and looked at more closely…

It was so vivid and real because it had to be.

Mom could not have known the journey she would take for the next twenty years following my death.

But she trusted the journey had to be meaningful… She needed it to be meaningful…

In many ways our work together started the day I left this earth…

This dream showed Mom that I was still in her life…from a new dimension?

Yes…In Spirit…Heaven…with God…a higher power…

She needed to see me there…

To envision my new reality…

And hers…

To go beyond what she had ever known…

To see that I was showing her…we could still connect in her dreams…

Because…and Mom was not aware of this…she and I were soul planned to work together as a bereaved mom…and her son in Spirit…

This dream opened that up to her…with little explanation…other than she KNEW I came to her from Spirit and she hugged me…and knew it was a goodbye of sorts…or maybe a hello

Hello??

YesHello Mom

We are working together

And she could never have known at that profound moment in time… through a dream…a visit from me…

It was one of many messages that came to her…

…I will come to you through music…and the lyrics that say to you…I am aware of what you are doing…feeling…needing… Build the children’s memorial… You can do it… You don’t need to give my scholarship any more…you’ve done a beautiful job of keeping my memory alive… Create a support group… Get a reading from Susan Sanderford…and in many more ways…

We in Spirit…your loved ones…your children…are working through you to show you our connection…when it is the right time. Do not despair when you reach out in desperation…we ARE there…even when you cannot see, feel, hear, or touch us.

Our love is unconditionaland everlasting

Trust… Be open… Believe…

We’ll be back on Monday…

xox

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  • carol swanson
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    Hi, Sara! I am one of the Casa Angels and just finished reading today’s blog and it has moved me to tears. I lost my mom just one year ago on March 30, 2013. I have no siblings, never married, no children, dad passed 23 yrs ago… The last 9 yrs of our lives together involved 24 hrs/day and 7 days/week caregiving for my mom w/ dementia (and I had no help). I wouldn’t wish her back to live the kind of lives we both had to live through during that 9 years, but I still miss her and the healthier times that we shared together…and now feel like an orphan in the world! I had a huge sign from her w/in the first 24 hrs after her death, but no more signs since then…unless you consider the most gigantic rainbow I’ve ever seen on 3/31/14 (just a few days ago and one year since her death). I am 66 yrs of age, have recently moved to a new location and am experiencing some health issues; so, I’m a little bit scared being all alone and wondering about my future. It is reassuring to hear from you that love we shared with those dear to us never dies and to hear of your personal experiences of Scott since his death. Thanks again for reaching out to us with this blog.

    • Sara Ruble
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      Hi Carol.. Thank you for sharing… I’m so sorry about your mom. We learn from everything, don’t we? Even this hard journey. I hope my experiences and what I’ve learned through Scott’s death and his communication can help you. And the rainbow…I think it was GIANT sign! xox

  • Sheryl Saz
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    HI Sara, Wow!! Thank you for the confirmation. Your son Scott is a beautiful caring soul and he really does communicate with you, his dear Mom. This brings me so much comfort and confirms to me that my son Michael is around me. I have had a few (2-3) vivid dreams with Michael. The last one (around six months ago), I got to kiss him good-bye on the cheek as I didn’t get the opportunity the night of his crash and this had always bothered me. Michael died on 31 March 2012 so we just passed the two year mark. Dream visitations are wonderful and we live for them, but unfortunately, as parents, we never get them as often as we would like. As you said, “It is in Spirits time, not ours”. Thank you again for your caring healing blog.

    • Sara Ruble
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      Dear Sheryl,
      Thank you for your heartfelt comments. My heart goes out to you with the death of your son…but it is so beautiful you were able to say goodbye too. It means so, so much…especially when we don’t think that could ever happen. We begin to see and know…love comes to us in many unexpected ways. xox

  • Jane
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    Dear Sara and Scott,
    Thank you both for taking the time and energy to brings these spiritual miracles through to everyone who is lucky enough to be reading your block. No one can tell this story like someone who has worked and slaved over missing the love of her life and found a way to recognize his never failing existence and loving connection. I’m so profoundly touched and gratified by your words of love and help to your fellow grievers. Thank You Thank You THANK YOU!!!!!
    Jane

    • Sara Ruble
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      Thank you Jane,
      You know my journey and that I never gave up believing and trusting it was Scott… I’m grateful for your help…always.
      xox Sara

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