Love does not die…

Can love never really end?

When I found the poem which I have called “The Kite Poem”…ever so clearly did it express to me that the love from Scott was still…flowing.

It was a sign…and I didn’t even know about “signs”. But I knew this poem came into our home and into the package of notebook paper…without my knowing…

It was magical, mystical…beyond belief… And yet it IS real.

The reality of Scott’s death created for me…a feeling of apartness…distance of untold miles…unbearable separation and…unbearable pain…

Reality

What is it?

My only child left this earth…never to be seen again… And yet…he made sure I heard from him!

Does that mix up what we think or think we know about reality…about the finality of death?

Gone…yet not really…gone?

I never could have known what vast experiences and love…and every emotion ever expressed would come through me in the years that followed…

Each one brought me closer to the knowing that death is not final…

That death teaches

That life and death teach us…through pain and love and everything in between.

I wanted Scott’s life to have meaning…I KNEW it did…

And I also NEEDED Scott’s death to have meaning too…

And almost twenty years into this experience with my son…I KNOW more…

MORE…

Through this blog I will share with you…and explain what I have learned …and at times been forced to see through this incredible journey I have been on…

Life teaches.

Death teaches…

As Scott brings me the words…WE will teach you…

It will be profound…

You may have to step back at times and decide if you can agree with me…or you are just not ready yet… It happens to all of us…

Or you may know through your own journey that more is happening that we have not yet been taught…that our children and loved ones are showing us…teaching us in their own unique and beautiful ways…as Scott does with me…

Trust…

Love does not ever die

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  • Daria Kathleen Sherman
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    I tell my self that Love and the Love I have for my son and he has for me is stronger than my grief over the loss of his young 19 yr old life. Then I feel better.

    • Sara Ruble
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      Daria…as we work on this new reality we have to do this…knowing it’s really all about our love…helped me to find some balance. xox

  • Diane Tyler-Wilkes
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    I love reading your encouraging words..

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