A bigger picture…

The grief was ever present…

When the days and nights and then the months and years moved me into the grief …and around it and into it more…I could see this truly was a forever journey…

Grief pushed me around and I fought back. I worked so hard and felt like the work and effort and pain was not going to let me go… I was exhausted and yet could not give up

I knew I could never be the same person…

That was important to me…

I would not ever be the same person

I could not ever be feeling complete again… Scott was not here…in his body for me to hug or see or talk with… No college graduation or marriage or family…

But then…

Somehow…

I was alone…but I KNEW I was not alone.

Somehow…Scott kept showing me I was not alone.

The grief counselor I chose…somehow could hear Scott. How could that be?

…Did he choose her for me…or had I chosen her?

She validated the signs I was getting…and in time…Scott came through her to validate more for me.

How???

Because this love connection was never…neverbroken.

Scott exists…

This I now know for certain.

He is bringing these words through me…to you.

Because…

The meaning and the lessons…that I learned…

Are important for you too…

Can it all have meaning…?

It does…

More is coming…

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  • Nancy Cooper
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    Sara,
    Your beautiful words resonate and comfort. I hope to see you at the Afterlife Awareness conference in June.
    Hugs,
    Nancy

    • Sara Ruble
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      Thank you Nancy… I will be at the conference and I’m looking forward to seeing you too…
      xox

  • Audrey
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    Sara- I have just been made aware of your blog love your posts. I live in Gunnison, Co where you lost your son. I lost my son 1 1/2 years ago at the age of 19. Your blog speaks to me in so many ways. My son and I have the connection and the bond and love that you and Scott share. I also get messages and visitations. I look forward to reading more of your blog and thank you for opening your life and heart and sharing your story with us. We are blessed to be able to connect and share in our grief. I would like to know more about the Afterlife Awareness conference … Any info would be appreciated.
    In Love and Light.

    • Sara Ruble
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      Thank you for sharing you are from Gunnison Audrey. It is so interesting how we come together… My heart goes out to you with the loss of your son. It is a journey of the heart to find others who understand us… I’m happy you found my blog and hope my experiences continue to help you. There is still much to share…
      The 2014 Afterlife Awareness Conference is in Portland, OR this year – June 5-8. Go to http://www.afterlifeawareness.com

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