Grief Wisdom… How do you see this?
Nothing can change the fact that my child or my loved one died. Nothing…
What do I do now?
Is that the question we all must ask…at least 100,000 times?
Who am I? Where are you? Can I see you still? Can I hear you still? What can I do to not feel this horrendous pain and how deeply I miss you??
Questions…with so few answers.
I’ve lived this for twenty years…
And I’ve seen a lot, heard a lot, read tons of material on grief, written my own thoughts, meditated, created, asked the 100,000 questions…
I see more now.
I now know I was meant to.
Does that sound arrogant? I hope not. I do not ever want to be or sound arrogant. I’ve seen that…and it taught me…to not go there…
I am always the student… and sometimes the teacher. I want to learn… I needed to learn… I had to learn.
This grief journey which I now know is my soul journey in this lifetime has taken me places I don’t ever want to go to again. But, you know what? I learned while I was there…embedded, immersed in pain and misery and fear…and SO MUCH more.
I also know LOVE was there…
Because of all this…I feel I have something I call grief wisdom.
The journey I took pushed me to learn…to grapple with pain and uncertainty and all that came…and forced me to seek answers…and ultimately hope and healing.
Did I want hope? Did I seek healing? Not really… I wanted the pain and anguish that encased me in that place of unknowns to go away. GO AWAY!
My joinery~journey is like yours and then totally not like yours… but what we do have in common is the immense need to connect with our loved ones…and in my case…Scott.
In 1994, I did not know about connections like we do today. It was not openly spoken about…signs, visitation dreams, orbs, finding things, beautiful messages of the most unique kinds… Hardly even written about.
So my grief journey was one of great discovery when I did receive a “sign” from Scott, or saw him in my dreams… I was always caught off guard…never frightened… But shocked….and I mean shocked with that gleeful surprise that many of you know….and intrigue. How can this happen??
I had no expectation of what might come from Scott…I only knew of what came to me. Remember, 1994… No Facebook to share or read of the possibilities of connecting with our loved ones. On my own…except for my grief counselor who miraculously was very open to what I was sharing with her…and validated, not ever diminishing what I was experiencing. Thank God.
Scott needs to share with me and you about all this…the signs and all he brought me after his death…to help us understand…more.
Scott Spirit ~
I have known my my mom’s soul plan from the moment I left this earth. I see it detail to detail and year to year…her entire journey. All in Spirit are as aware as I am…so your loved ones know you and your journey too.
WE do this work to connect with you…or not connect…to confuse sometimes and to open up your thinking in new ways….and of course to reassure you of our love.
Earth is that place of learning. Life teaches… You all know this. Death is the teacher of more than anyone can really understand…until you begin to see more…and more…and more.
And WE used the term grief wisdom for Mom/Sara in this blog because the wisdom that came to her through this long and arduous, truly meaningful grief experience is tremendously valuable…and needs to be shared.
She never ever thought our life and death journey would be shared in a blog titled “Death Teaches”.
Oh no…she had to learn to write and bring OUR words through to you.
Has Sara’s death knowledge exceeded what others know?
There is much speculation on what happens in death, with the Other Side, near death experiences, the science of after death communication, the brain and it’s ability to receive messages or hear loved ones. Mediums and psychic abilities… Who can you believe?
WE are bringing you another voice…through this blog. Something more to contemplate, take in… or throw away as not possible or viable…or you’re not ready for it yet.
Sara was born into this life to be all she has been and will be. You too…
No one can ever know what their life will bring. All the planning you may do can be dashed by one experience. You know that…now.
You have had to learn that life is unpredictable…cruel…beyond painful… And yet still filled with LOVE.
What a strange collection of words… But you know they all go together. You are on a journey of trying to balance your love with all the other emotions and feelings you are going through, aren’t you?
Mom/Sara had to too. Such a complicated life into greater knowing she has walked…and continues to.
Because she and I…Sara and Scott planned …PLANNED this lifetime together before we were born… This is her journey. Our journey. Could she have ever foreseen her path…my death…her pain…her new reality?
Never…it unfolds as it unfolds. Just like yours…
So why would she be the one who can hear Scott so easily…after MANY years of hard grief work? Planned. Her life was to move into new uncharted territory about six years ago…
Has it been all you might think? Well, the love of Scott and hearing ME has been miraculous she would tell you. MIRACULOUS. The steps to getting where she is today…all planned…were for her to be opened to new ways of seeing life and death… Working within this new world of Spirit for Mom has been hard, hard, work. Confusing and more confusing…until the answers could come to her.
She has persevered…and her husband Jay too (in his own confusion of spiritual workings).
WHY? She asked many times. Why me? Why is all this happening to me? You are scaring me Scott…and then filling me with incredible unconditional love…
Some journeys are meant to stretch someone beyond their knowing…way beyond…to teach and guide and teach and guide…on this topic of death and the afterlife and after death communication.
WE needed you to know this today…and as Mom/Sara is typing she has goosebumps all over and a knot in her stomach knowing we WILL send this out. Because, it truly is all about LOVE.
How have others been able to teach you with greater wisdom and knowing? …Through their own experiences…and their new knowings…their pain…their wisdom…their soul plan…to teach and guide and open others up to something that was never known before. This has been going on throughout all lifetimes since the beginning of time. They are teachers. You read their words and you are changed or validated or opened up in new ways to something valuable or needed…inspired.
In this lifetime, Sara and Scott, as boldly as this seems today…are teachers of the afterlife. If you have been following our blog for awhile…you may know this. If you just found us…please go to our blog’s archives and read from the beginning to have a greater understanding of our joinery together. Our journey…
More next week… WE will open up to more of Sara’s journey and her new reality to help you understand more about your own. It is deep and it is beautiful and it may be just what you have needed…to understand more about how death and life teach…you.
Love, love, love.
Sara and Scott Spirit